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The only path is marriage

Oh... Gods there's no escaping this
27 days and then this is it
Don't get me wrong I'm excited
But goodness this is all so much
Constant messages about opinions
What are my thoughts on this or that
Heres what the officiant wants to say
Gotta email them and tell them its okay
There's panic growing in this ribcage
A growing clouds of doom leaking from my bones
My lungs are filling up with cement
I hate choices as much as I hate not having them
Under an oak tree in a park with a vague name
The final twists will be put into place
My mind feels like a trapped bird
I want this, I do, I really do want this
The life I have with him is so perfect
There's no one else out there for me
The number of questions keep growing
Which corset, which flowers, what food
Who's coming, who's feelings am I hurting
Oh gods the migraine is coming on quick
I just want to run away, get a clone  
How am I going to tell the people I haven't told
That I'm in a relationship let alone getting married
I'm private for a reason, I just didn't want anyone to ruin this
He's mine and I don't think he knows what that means yet
The stalkers, the family drama, the health issues
Does he really want this as much as I do
Gods I feel that I'm going to be sick
It was so,so easy to say yes to this
Easy to scroll on Pinterest for rings
It's as if I'm drowning on all the prep
We wanted something simple...
And yet this is growing to something out of control
I feel that saying yes was a match dropped
On the cardhouse of my relationships
It's so public... So, so public  
It feels like the end and the beginning
And I'm burning from all that it means
No escape, no running away
I choose him and I choose happiness
There's nothing but this path
Nothing to say but I do
BlueBeastGirl
Written by BlueBeastGirl (Running from the Reaper)
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