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Broken Rear Views and Dirty Headlights
Driving through the night
radio up way too loud
enough to muffle sirens
and cell phone sounds
still can't drown out
what's rolling through my head
question my lack of guilt
for feelings I'm told I shouldn't have
unrestrained by boundaries
Then they play that damn song
the one you turned up for me
no longer in heavy rotation
no expectation of the memory flood
think about turning it off
but my hand doesn't move
so I sing
Everything is swimming
don't know if you even remember
why it means anything to me
shake my head and half laugh
at the way I miss you
when you pretend I don't exist
Press the accelerator
closer to the floorboard
but I'll never go fast enough
to get away from our deconstruction
That doesn't stop me from trying
Published 19th Jul 2021
| Edited 18th Nov 2021
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19th Jul 2021 5:16am
Dear PS,
For me the end of the world wasn’t far enough away for a breakup. Your closing stanza nails the emotion of trying to outrun the feelings that can plague the heart. Great write for a sad situation. H🌷
For me the end of the world wasn’t far enough away for a breakup. Your closing stanza nails the emotion of trying to outrun the feelings that can plague the heart. Great write for a sad situation. H🌷
20th Jul 2021 00:14am
There's no way to outrun pain, is there? Thanks, as always, for reading and commenting.
19th Jul 2021 12:02pm
i adore the realism in this piece on so many levels so i may be here for a while, well you know me, if it feels real the better 😆
the memories and conversations reeling off like a soundtrack was an amazing vision i got from reading here, also you capture being emotionally torn between yearning and escape beautifully, i don't know what it is about being alone in a vechile or on public transport but it seems to be where our thoughts run wild without any reservations and it's never apologetic either which i felt throughout this poem
your last stanza although i understand for you it's captured as a hopelessness feeling however, it offered me a personal sign on a positive note in some ways, sometimes we find signs throughout others words and that was a gift in reading your poem this morning 🙂
thank you for sharing
always a joy to see you around 😎
-ethan
the memories and conversations reeling off like a soundtrack was an amazing vision i got from reading here, also you capture being emotionally torn between yearning and escape beautifully, i don't know what it is about being alone in a vechile or on public transport but it seems to be where our thoughts run wild without any reservations and it's never apologetic either which i felt throughout this poem
your last stanza although i understand for you it's captured as a hopelessness feeling however, it offered me a personal sign on a positive note in some ways, sometimes we find signs throughout others words and that was a gift in reading your poem this morning 🙂
thank you for sharing
always a joy to see you around 😎
-ethan
20th Jul 2021 00:58am
Thank you so much for the RL add. Touched and flattered by that.
I agree that there's something about being alone when you're going somewhere (or occasionally nowhere) in a car, on a train, etc, that lets your mind just wander, particularly at night, I think, when you're less likely to have people interrupt your wanderings.
The only time I ever listen to the radio anymore is in the car, where songs can really catch you off guard. I think that's what I like most about it.
Your comments mean so much to me, and these went above and beyond. Much love to ya.
I agree that there's something about being alone when you're going somewhere (or occasionally nowhere) in a car, on a train, etc, that lets your mind just wander, particularly at night, I think, when you're less likely to have people interrupt your wanderings.
The only time I ever listen to the radio anymore is in the car, where songs can really catch you off guard. I think that's what I like most about it.
Your comments mean so much to me, and these went above and beyond. Much love to ya.
