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Sanctioned Pain
It's irony I think in this
That long ago it was different
The only thing that kept me alive
Was a needle held over fire
The gasps of pain filling the air
As I pressed it to my flesh
Now needles holding burning medicine
Is what keeps me alive today
The gasp after injection
The hidden thrill...
That I can hurt myself again
That long ago it was different
The only thing that kept me alive
Was a needle held over fire
The gasps of pain filling the air
As I pressed it to my flesh
Now needles holding burning medicine
Is what keeps me alive today
The gasp after injection
The hidden thrill...
That I can hurt myself again
Published 18th Jul 2021
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18th Jul 2021 6:23am
Cool well don't leave your needles all over someone's bedroom like u and sleepy did before... :)
18th Jul 2021 7:43am
18th Jul 2021 8:54am
I love u but I didn't stutter. When I recently met you yes you wrote the same day about an hour after I left. about years ago with sleepy at my house. Leaving piles of rigs all over my bedroom floor. But I'm happy to hear you've changed for the better. God bless
18th Jul 2021 7:31pm
We.. never met??? This poem is about self harm vs medical injections? I dont know who you are????
19th Jul 2021 4:04am
19th Jul 2021 4:25am
Anonymous
19th Jul 2021 6:20pm
Those are all some messed up comments. 🙄
This is a brilliant, and heartbreaking poem. I am sorry for the burdens you carry, though I appreciate you sharing them so artfully, try to stay strong.
This is a brilliant, and heartbreaking poem. I am sorry for the burdens you carry, though I appreciate you sharing them so artfully, try to stay strong.
19th Jul 2021 6:46pm
Im not sure what poem they were reading. Maybe I chose the wrong category??
I really appreciate your comment. I've been trying to come to some kind of mental balance when it comes to these shots and my past actions. Im getting there... Its slow, but Im trying.
I really appreciate your comment. I've been trying to come to some kind of mental balance when it comes to these shots and my past actions. Im getting there... Its slow, but Im trying.
20th Jul 2021 1:21am
8th Aug 2021 10:52pm
It's a different perspective, the self-harm now enlightened struggling to stay alive.
Strong write Blue.
Strong write Blue.
12th Sep 2021 8:18pm
The first comment sounds like a gaslighting ploy. There’s bound to be a marginal percentage of any creative group that’s just crazy or assholish.
The journey of self pain to self care coming full round is rich and true though. It’s a trip how perspective works, how you can slip into an embrace of the pain and be uplifted or at least nulled by it. Whether that’s self inflicted harm from some cycle of confinement and loathing or a necessary side effect of medical treatment, that act of leaning in is so utterly subjective and in some ways you’re reuniting with your younger self and checking in by entering that ritual. Very good write.
The journey of self pain to self care coming full round is rich and true though. It’s a trip how perspective works, how you can slip into an embrace of the pain and be uplifted or at least nulled by it. Whether that’s self inflicted harm from some cycle of confinement and loathing or a necessary side effect of medical treatment, that act of leaning in is so utterly subjective and in some ways you’re reuniting with your younger self and checking in by entering that ritual. Very good write.
