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Daddy's Girl

I
should have been a Daddy's Girl.
I was built for it
climbing trees,
skinning my knees

They say I favored you, with my
square jawline rich with Apache
and Blackfoot Indian blood running
through my veins

I even laugh like you some say

So strange to see my own reflection
and know that my
face is the only memory
I have of yours.

'cause every lil' girl needs her Daddy.

But there was no-one there to hold me
when I cried out in the night
from the hands of some other man
who didnt know me
but thought he owned me

Never were there any lessons that YOU showed me
other than how to dissapear.
You weren't there when Mama
found this ride called life too taxing
and got off the bus, just checked out
of my life
without even so much
as a goodbye

You weren't there ....and I waited patiently for you
prayed for you
in hopes that something would
remind you
that you still had flesh and blood upon this earth
something should have moved you
to reach out and want
to know me...like I wanted to know you

Something in your soul
should have caused a disturbance
in your personal atomosphere
let you hear me
call you

Daaaaddy!

But you never did,
and you have no idea
How I have struggled through this life
with all my baggage and mental strife
allowing myself to be mistreated and misused
all because I'm a grown-ass woman
with Daddy issues
with my baggage, and broken dreams
Hopscotching through relationships
like some mad scientist
relentlessly trying to find the formula
that would make the men I slept with
love me

like you should have

Always striving to please no matter
the cost

But my soul became too high a price to pay
I had to stop allowing myself to be misused
all over my broken dreams of you

Yeah ...
I should have been a Daddy's Girl
Instead...
I was just a girl
with no Daddy
So I walk away from your memory sadly
I guess you were never supposed
to walk me down the isle
or kiss
your first grandchild

and I quess I will never know
what it's like to have my first
dance on Daddy's toes
yeah I wonder...Daddy...even now
Do you ever think of me?
Do you have any idea
how much I wanted to be

My Daddy's Girl.  
Written by Firebyrd
Published | Edited 25th Feb 2012
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