Evolving

I feel like I took too long to get to this place
But I know the fact I'm here is all that really matters
I can beat myself up about how I'm ridiculously late
And dismiss the motions I've been through in all of my life chapters
But shame is a feeling I have no time for
And self blame is often unworthy of my attention
They seek to invalidate all the new things I've learned
They only serve as hindrances to growth and progression
I hope through evolution I become bigger than their voices
And that I rise above the height they sometimes stand
I hope my actions speak so loud that their words become just noises
Too quiet to be heard so their reach cannot expand
Because yes it's true that I needed some guidance
But it's false that it's not okay to receive
And yes it's true that external validation has been helpful
To help me find a little more self belief
It's also true that I needed a push
Because I almost let fear get the best of me
But what's also true is I did not let it
And the things that I'm good at I now see with clarity
So I will take the present and claim it as mine to hone
Carve out weapons to battle my inner critic
Shape my future around where it is I want to go
Become stronger with each moment of "hell yeah I did this"
And with each tool found beyond my comfort zone
I will take steps closer to winning
Enhancing skills to spark continuous flow
This here is just the beginning