Lazy (Note to self - 45)

So I am lazy.
A quick realization
After a lifelong
Of denials.
True, even making love
To a woman I found
To be hard work.
Hard work also just trying
To keep head afloat
With lousy paying work
And, as the saying goes,
Forgetting to live
While trying to make
A living.
Giving up for a good while,
Breakdowns, welfare,
Depressions
But now
Retired from the
Craziness
I enjoy
A small, very small
Pension
But at least
I am at peace
With myself.