Who I Am Today

Who I am today

is not who I was yesterday.

Not even the tears I've cried

or the mistakes I've made.



I can't deny

it's always lying

underneath the surface,

but maybe with all this,

there's a purpose,

one unknown to me

that I can't even see.



I know,

I know that I'm still standing

even without a perfect landing

Lost cause or not,

here I am seeking

all that gives my life meaning.



It all leads who I am today.



Who I am today

is not who I was yesterday.

Not even the tears I've cried

or the mistakes I've made.



Who I am now

is one in a better place

with a more genuine face.

One who knows what's she lost

and is here to make up for it whatever the cost.

One who gets what it's like to hurt

yet has a truth that isn't looking to convert.



Who I am today

is not who I was yesterday.

Not even the tears I've cried

or the mistakes I've made.



Not yesterday...



Not a week ago,

a month ago,

a year ago,

two years,

three years,

four,

five.



Whatever the length of time,

this is a hurdle I'd like to climb.



Because



Who I am today

is not who I was yesterday.

Not even the tears I've cried

or the mistakes I've made.



And no matter how people'd like to define me,

I hope they look at who I am today.