Seeing red again

Her sights gone red
All her feelings condescend
Her arms and mind  mutilated
Every muscle in her aches
Everything blurred and black
       As her rage attacks
Ptsdbis the only thing    controlling her
As she comes too
She prayers for light
But to her dismay,
Blood pours from her skin
She's drowned by darkness
              Again
The glass shattered in cuts
          Upon my wrists
She just wants to see
She just wants to be free
Let loose from the grip
             Of Ptsd
She says she just wants
                  To die
But she can't go a day w/o
         Seeing his eyes
She can't tell anymore lies
She can see, yet she's blind
She can feel, but she's not  
                 Real
      Her life a masquerade
Rage... Blackens and hides
       Her from seeing light
Depression ... Keeps her
     From seeing the light
Despair... Written deep in
            Her mind set
Infamy burns deep within
              Her eyes
She wants to fight, fight the
Flashbacks of an unsatisfactory past
Which she can feel all
          Over again
Their wat makes her real
She can't decifer reality
        From the past