throw and catch....

        
       
       
       
    those whom can relate, knows this best; it's something with the mindset-so let's "throw and catch"        
       
       
    what do i mean? a change within one's "scenery"; remember the game "made you look?" there's many reasons why it needs a book....        
       
          
    the keyword is psychology....you follow me? for those who do; i send a genuine apology....in how i speak....        
       
       
    it starts with pain that's buried deep....deep within; subconsciously....i'll term it "second hand smoke" for those like me....        
       
       
   it's simple yet it's very deep; few will grasp just what i mean.... it's like.... being obsessed with being beat upside the head mentally....        
       
       
  there's more to this than eyes perceive....        
       
         
like the "punch drunk" feeling from the "fight club" movie....just rewrite and twist the scenes more than just a tweak....        
       
       
  something else entirely....it stems from insecurities; pain ingrained more or less within the heart and brain....        
       
       
  remember "i am legend"? when will said,"please say hello to me...."; the manikin"refused to speak...."        
       
       
  in fact there's different scenes within a movie that hit hard like "crank" skydiving scene where face meets concrete....(do you feel me?)      
       
       
  it's simple, yet it's very deep....it's beyond what words could speak....        
it's more than "insecurities"....        
       
       
  a damaged heart....might as well play dodge ball in the street; or greet a dog that bites and has large teeth....        
       
    damaged....somewhere on the spectrum....a broken heart....a mind that flees where words can't speak....    
     
     
     
     
     
     
  it happens because the "flesh is weak...." a sort of desperate game of "hide and seek"....the idle mind that wanders deep....    
   
   
  fight or flight..the flight response to pain....the pilot's  sleep....this write feels like the tape that reads "play me" when I'm deceased....