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I Blame My Self...

i blame my self for
loving a brain less girl
that love which
made me blind

i blame myself for
giving my time
to a girl who knows nothing
about love and life without love

i blame myself for
losing my dignity
to a girl who knows
nothing about it totally
but they say never blame
yourself for a relationship
that didn't work out

but all the blaming and joke is over
its my time to say to her "your game is over"
and say it's all over

all i gotta to do
is to let her go
bring back my dignity
and act as if she doesn't exist

messing with my level
and stop being stable
ignoring her existence
and keeping myself in a distance

i am in University Level
and you are still in school level
three months after I'll finish my university
three years after she'll use my tools lonely
while i am heading to university for master program
your on your way to university

leave me alone, your gone
your nothing compared to me
you're like little girl who is forgotten
like someone whose missing his last breathin'
just dead body in chest being graven'

these were the words
i said to you
when my intelligent brain
ordered my broken heart
to let her go
can't hold her anymore
can't pressure her to love me indeed
just tryin' find someone
who is not an evil girl
like my last book cover
as the previous old one

i did as i was wanting to do
and feel happy and stress less
walking alone with my path
I'm alone but happy to be
maybe will meet other one
when that time is all about to begin

all i want to say to you
not some bad words
not tryin' to hurting
not insulting
not abusing
is a kind of advice from a big person
that you didn't respect his reason
i just want to tell you
"never trust someone before you find both good-side and bad-side"
"and never look back or going back to your last steps"
"and don't be a fool who ask you what to do"

so try to find the person who is better than me as you said i love another one
but when u said "i love another one"
that line makes me laugh much
but later worried about that guy you told me love him which doesn't know your freakin' game so high and so bad
but try to cover your hole
or it will be full of lie

now is my time to say my words
which puts my destiny in high-single-road
that words is "Peace"