Unconscious

Conscious      
        
I've worked my entire life          
mastering my craft        
         
I'm a designer, you see        
at Masterpiece Cakeshop—        
my own company        
         
I'm not young, by far          
I come from a belief          
that Jesus is King—        
my King, who will deliver me        
         
I have served the homeless;        
I have served other religious affiliates:          
Muslim, Hindu, Buddhist        
because it matters not        
who enters my shop;        
they all receive the same service          
         
I do not discrimminate          
against the color of your skin        
or your sexual preference        
because it matters not        
who enters my shop;        
they all receive the same service          
         
Furthermore, I don't request          
that you change what you believe          
in order to appease me          
or receive service          
         
You need not enter          
quoting scripture;        
you need not enter          
professing Jesus is King          
         
All I ask in return          
is the same—please        
do not expect me to change          
to appease your belief    
 
Marriage is between
a woman and a man
I will not change
my view on that belief      
         
Subconscious          
         
Deep inside, I know that I know        
the truth of Love, somewhere—        
it hides its face behind fear          
         
And I don't yet realize          
that a commissioned masterpiece          
would not alter my faith        
in the least          
         
But, I am unconscious—        
grounded in fire          
and brimstone        
I have not yet learned  
that Love cannot be contained
in a box, label, or belief
I have not yet learned       
to hang all the prophets and law          
upon Jesus' two commandments:          
         
Love the LORD your God          
with all your heart and soul          
and  mind        
         
And, Love your neighbor          
as yourself        
         
I do not realize          
the opportunity I missed        
to share the gospel          
with those in disbelief        
that I accepted a commission        
from a gay couple—    
as Jesus serving publicans    
and sinners    
         
And why, exactly, I chose Love        
over ego and fear of burning        
amid flames filling my mind with doubt       
vs floating atop the Water of Life          
fulfilling my heart          
         
Give me time—        
maybe in the next life        
I'll live what it's like          
and finally understand          
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