The Nail In The Coffin ( For Us)

  Today is a painful reminder of you as it reminds
   me of bittersweet memories that we had today on this date as it was your birthday and I remember doing all I could to make it the best day ever despite the arguing, despite the delays, I wanted you to be happy.
 Fast forward to seven months later as I’m sitting here by myself reminiscing and thinking about all the things that has happened and going a bit crazy ‘cause I want to know how could you have switched up on me the way that you did?  
Make me me feel like I could trust you the way that I did?, give me that feeling of safety then take it away with such swiftness.
You were my everything, you were my heart and soul;
I’d lie for you, I’d kill for you, I’d die for you but you would never do the same because you were in love with someone else and she wouldn’t even help you at your worst like I did, better yet she was the reason you ended up hitting rock bottom with not even a pot to piss in.
 Tell me, what the fuck were you thinking?  
I gave you everything!  
Hell you were my everything!  
Now I guess you’re nothing to me.
We had something, but you only wanted to be with a ghost from the past who could give less of a fuck about you meanwhile I would’ve given my heart to you on a silver platter and served it to you well done because I wasn’t joking when I said you are all that I want and no one else.
And all that angers me now is that I can’t forgive you that one that I pictured a future with, being a mother to your children with and spending the rest of my life with.
How could I forgive and forget when you were the one that I shared all my darkest secrets to, all my darkest moments to, was there for me when no one else was?  
You hurt me more with words than with your deception.
I trusted you and gave you my all but I guess you couldn’t even do the same.
So my pain was what spoke.
So this is the final nail in the coffin for us as I wish you nothing but the best and pray you are blessed and will continue to move on.