Rhyme without reason

Fumbling along one day at time
Without rhyme or reason I continue to keep breathing
Pushing past through the shades of blue
The days when I feel like I’ve been put to the test showed up to get swallowed, crushed up and regurgitated maybe I am depressed
There’s been days when the sarcasm hasn’t been enough to water down the stress
I’ve been intertwined to this emptiness from the moment I took my first breath
As the moments continue to pass me by I just exhale and find solace in the confines of my mind
Just a brief moment in time a lapse in reason when introspection works its way out into a rhyme
I must be overflowing once again like a cup that’s been filled past the rim
Except my tears get siphoned by a misleading grin bottled away never to see the light of day
Until a small kink in the armor gives way
To a small cascade that’s never more than a few tears because the feeling is too surreal or maybe too strong maybe because I’ve been taught that it’s wrong
Outside of the confines on my innate design it’s too late to reconfigure the inner workings they’ve been cemented through time