YOU GAVE ME THE THOUGHT

I had to learn the hard way through the process of suffering and dealing with you, that we are only human beings as we feel our own emotions and feelings. That  sometimes become enflame with regrets and blame in the depth of our heart. Sometimes becoming fill with unanswered questions of WHY? For when we first met I felt safe around you and felt the greatest, release of my heart finally becoming more and more alive. But yet beneath the surface of my subconsciousness as a woman, there are those thoughts echoing through the chambers of my being human as a WOMAN. As I am confuse about were we stand in our lives, that is suppose to be about love from the depth of the heart and soul. For nowadays I feel like I am invincible to you, as you escape into that realm of not being able, to communicate with me about our relationship as woman and man. For was it not love that bought us closer together, not trying to be apart from each other as one yet I still wonder maybe we weren't meant to be ? But yet time and time again you verbally, express your feelings and emotions that you are only human as a man. Yet you still are depriving me of the life and love I truly deserve, as promises as a man through spoken words that we together shall have in our lives. But all you ever did was poison my mind ripping out my heart as though, I was some kind of a chess game on a board for you to play mind games. But yet you refuse to admit that it was you as a man, who took no effort nor energy or time to reconnect with me, not even in commitment and consistency and honesty and truth and trust. As your woman and the worst part about it is that I truly thought you, really love me as that too was a lie you told me to BELIEVE knowing that it was never truly love from the beginning.