Not So Cool

Today, I was told, I am cool. I don't think cool is the word people would associate with me. I think people would consider me obnoxious, obstinate, arrogant, self-righteous probably, maybe just maybe also shy, I am/can be shy. I don't really greet people I know with enthusiasm or warmth, I am not too polite or charming. I never really manage to tell what I think, by the time I understand what I think the time is long gone to tell. I struggle to know/understand what I feel, actually. I look back at some things and think about how I felt at the time, but.. when it's happening, I don't have any idea. So, a lot of the time I don't know what I want or I feel or what I should say. I haven't a clue.