daze of one's "life"

  
 
   
  living....hardly because of will power;  
but because the human body fights to sustain itself....until it can't....  
   
 this is a large portion of one's subconscious thought process throughout most days....    
   
wearing a blank stare expression; one's energy is low, surroundings are dim instead of glow....  
   
one feels no point of waking up in the morning....yet it's beyond one's control....  
 
one wishes it were easy, to freely let go....  
 
but damnit it isn't....