It's not about you

Hello, what do you need, indeed?  
Roleplaying calls for some imagination  
but our streets are full of tumbleweed  
and the faces of people carry frustration...!  

What is obstinacy, my dear Ego?  
I have never known you, to be sure;
conversations are like stepping on Lego,  
and my childhood visions blankly blur  
 
in the shape of imaginary friends,  
because no one I met was unconditional,  
and the energy fuel lost its stance,  
when it got exhausted, it felt past - it's official.  
 
I want to tell you, dear spirit,  
people don't know how to laugh...  
It's so empty where dreams are finished  
or at least they end up as time and a half.  
 
Hahaha. It's always bitter  
when you try to cut a string;  
but it litters you, this goddamn litter,  
and tears captured in my blinks.  
 
It was a mystery to find out  
this time I didn't fall in fancy,  
but it was still painful without  
the potential developing in some scenes...  
 
I cannot immerse myself in movies,  
still and lazing out on a sofa,  
it's just so devoid of own life groovy,  
it's nothing but a coloured buffer.  
 
I don't know how you manage this lifestyle,  
I want experience and plentitude..  
 
But It's been a goddamn while.  
 
This horrendous foreign attitude.  
 
It's the lack of patience to prepare  
for something to present itself healthily  
in your life, as you do have to bear  
the endless minutes beforehand, effectively.  
 
Healthy lifestyle means Your Presence  
should be sufficient, primordial its way;
But hello there... God... my Essence...  
it's Just Made to be in Company that Stays!