MY WORST ENEMY

All I feel is hurt and tons of terrible pain
I'm tryna drown out all my problems so I'm high everyday
I'm faced with the worst case scenario
Never been afraid, staring death in the face down the barrel of a stub nose
I swear when I see my life flashing right in front of me
Slow motion is when I pray to the angels
Felt it was over but I'm still here left with my anger
Instead now I'm paranoid and dangerous
So I'm getting faded and killing feelings, praying I ain't gotta feel a thing
Slurred speech from abusing scripts is got me slowly slipping
But it's too late to save me, I'm already codependent
I'm sitting thinking of death writing my last will add testament
My futures uncertain due to burdens that I wrestle with
My compassion disappeared faster than a magic trick
I'm just a hard headed bastard, a borderline disaster
Stuck in this sadness with no happiness or laughter