Too Close The Distance

Is it weird?
That moment I saw you,
wanting to be next to you,
wanting all of you
But when you were near me,
wanted nothing to do with you.
Seeing you
brought back so many ornamented memories,
fragile thoughts and delicate desires
I packed so neatly into a box
hidden in the deepest spaces of my mind.
Not wanting to explore
but wanting the endure all the feels that came with being with you
And so
I turned my head and looked away
pretending not to see,
when in that moment
my heart knew
all it wanted was
you.