I Wish I Was Me

I wish I was me
a long time it has been
since ever feeling
the way I used to feel
on the external
I appear as I should be
but the inner inferno
my strive for life
is burning low
my youth , my sight
where did it go
I used to fight
for the right of my call
but I'm losing height
everytime that I fall
my direction signs
are misguided and wrong
I need all sides
a high five
pentagon
to help me find
the trust I
know has gone
as I've not felt myself
in gone times
for so long  .