Mums girl

I held you in my arms
I looked upon your face
My tiny baby girl 💝
My gift from spirits grace.
I watched you grow and learn.
Your laughter and your joys
Outside playing happily
My baby and my boys.
In all my trialled errors
All learning of my own
I missed the fact your growing
Too soon I’d be alone.
Already you were older
Needing me no more.
At times I’d need my baby
She showed me to the door.
I couldn’t understand
Why did she hate me so
It didn’t get much better
In time I had to go.
Sitting back and watching
I couldn’t do a thing.
I wanted just to hug you
But anger had a sting
You looked at me with hatred
Our bond had disappeared
My heart was shattered deeply
Her now my deepest fear
I wanted so to hug you
To take away the fears
But there I’d sit so broken
So hard to stop the tears
I suddenly had realised
I’d lost my little girl
I couldn’t find her laughing
I couldn’t find her joy
She couldn’t find her old self
And neither could my boys
I tried to find a way
To bring back home my girl
The happy and the laughing
The one who danced and twirled.
For 15 years I lost her
I prayed yet every day
Please god help my baby 🙏🏻
And bring her home again.
I wanted so to hold her
To hear her say once more.
I need you mum, I love you
Not show me to the door.
So all I did was pray
And ask heavens Devine
Please bring my girl back safely
My tears were thick with crying.
A mum is always there
Although she isn’t seen
Our kids can be so cruel
But toxins make them mean.
But then a light of hope
A beam shines from the sky
God has heard my prayers
My wee one questions why
Why is this a dark place
How did I get here
I don’t want my life like this
Why do people care
She straightens up her crown
And looks mum in the eye
I’m sorry mum I really am
Mum now starts to cry.
But these are not the sad I cry
These are full of pride
My baby seen the light this day
The booze now not your ride
She stood up straight and strong
She looked me in the eye
Wipe your tears now ma
No more I’ll see you cry
I’ve got this mum she smiled
A hug of warmth and love
With strength now of a warrior
With all who care in tow
She marches through her trials
Her love to mum she’s shows
My baby girl has come back
From darkness, hate and lies
She stands up strong and honest
And past has said goodbyes
I watched my baby fall
I couldn’t do a thing
She cut me from her life
I watched her from the wing
She hit the lowest road
And suffered to the core
And mum could only watch her
Never leave her, That I swore
And now she’s standing firm
In all she has to do
My pride has now no ending
My girl is now not blue
She held me in her arms
And hugged me oh so tight
I love you ma she told me
No sign in her to fight
A Mumas love is lasting
No end no matter what
My girl is safe from hurting
My prayers, god heard the lot.

Dedicated to my beautiful daughter who fought the battle of booze.
I am so proud of you 💗💝🥰😘😍🤩🏆