[This is a lament I wrote on Blackwolf's thread
For The Love Of Animals, last Oct.
She passed on 10/14/20 I'll never forget that
I was going to rewrite it into more of a poem format but then decided against it.
I think about her every day. ]
Lost my Daisy-girl yesterday
I posted a shitty poem about it yesterday too, but hated it and took it down.
I was in a state, to put it mildly.
She was a big golden girl of love
and pure bright sunshine.
No matter how bad your day †
may have been going †
she could immediately turn it around
with one doggo look
or her immense love of anything tennis ball †
She was so very smart, loving, emotional
and so much fun †
I had been lucky enough
to visit her almost every day since 2013
often multiple times a day, too.
We had a tremendous bond.
She knew my name as well as her own.
When asked, "Is Susan here?" †
or "Where's Susan?" †
she would run to the front window
to see if I was walking up the driveway, †
which is how I would usually find her every day waiting for me...
Always in the big front window
I would open the door with my
"Where's my Daisy-girl"??!
Inevitably, I was almost knocked over
by her already right there †
tail waggin' with tennis ball in mouth
Until the last few months,
which had her missing †
several days at the window. †
Her hearing had really started to go, †
and her age was effecting her more and more.
Then I found her yesterday,
on her dog bed,
thinking she was asleep.
I have seen many animals pass away
and I have been there
with so many owners †
if they themselves
have chosen to end suffering.
I know this process.
I know it well.
However, this hit me hard as fuck.
I was destroyed...I am destroyed still.
I called Daisy's owner's at work
(talk about a shitty phone call),
told them as much as I could choke out
and then †
I sat. †
Petting my Daisy-girl, crying my eyes out,
until they got there.
I almost had to Uber home.
She was part of my day for so long,
I feel lost today.
with a piece of my heart missing
that was reserved only for my sweetest
Daisy-girl and her sunshine.
Lost with a cloudy heart. †
I'm sending her my love out into the universe
and hopefully it will meet her
at whatever window she might be waiting at...
"There's my Daisy-girl."