there is no title to an apology
my apologies to the people who have been subjected to my shit. I am not a good interactor. I am insensitive, a terrible writer, and I have shoved my shit in your faces for so long and at such high volume that you have had no choice but to pay attention to me. And I wrote something very insensitive about a war which continues to affect so many lives today (I said I spent the last two decades feeling accidentally responsible for it, which if my reading is correct, appears to raised some extreme ire among a select few here), the american death toll on that day, coupled with the so many who continue and are, affected by it everyday.
I have never been to war, and I can only comprehend it's horrors in my mind. Same thing with life on the death and deadly street. Im sorry for being such an asshole for so long inside of this closed environment. I suppose I've felt like the accidental antichrist for the last longish while, and i just wanted to confess it.
i apologize for all of the insensitive cruelty in everything i have been, like a rusty nail, for my ego has allowed me to scream at the loudest volume possible , while failing frightened, in all attempts to communicate friendship wise.