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Wish I Was Dead
Everything I do to make it better blows up in my face.
I punish myself regularly.
All I ever wanted was to be good at something.
Babies, living room never come to me at all.
Disappointed all, those who say, "You have it all".
"I just want you to be happy," end quote.
Why does everyone say that?
Can they tell I'm buried deep?
I'm starting to think love isn't worth it.
If I can't be what they think I am, then what's the god damn point?
I wish I wasn't scared.
Scared to go through it.
I punish myself regularly.
All I ever wanted was to be good at something.
Babies, living room never come to me at all.
Disappointed all, those who say, "You have it all".
"I just want you to be happy," end quote.
Why does everyone say that?
Can they tell I'm buried deep?
I'm starting to think love isn't worth it.
If I can't be what they think I am, then what's the god damn point?
I wish I wasn't scared.
Scared to go through it.
Published 18th Feb 2021
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18th Feb 2021 7:46am
I remember a day when my family and I were on our way home from church. Everyone dressed nice, completely healthy, they were all happy, the weather was even perfect. That is not why I remember that day so vividly though. I remember it because i felt so utterly empty. Like at any moment I could float away or break apart into tiny pieces. I have depression/anxiety issues and it alters my reality. I was lucky to come across a routine that helped me. Your ink reminded me of this.
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- Edited 18th Feb 2021 3:17pm
18th Feb 2021 3:16pm
I believe that there's not one breathing soul who hasn't had at least one of these emotions flutter inside themselves, to absolutely no discount of you or your head/heart space...
🌹 🙏 🌹
Sometimes people only see what we let them or what they want to see. The hard stuff is glossed over, because it feels to heavy or like too much work... there's people out there who can look and actually see and listen and actually hear.
Ty for sharing with us... stay in the good flight.
You ARE seen and you ARE heard.
Much love,
🌹
xo
B
🌹 🙏 🌹
Sometimes people only see what we let them or what they want to see. The hard stuff is glossed over, because it feels to heavy or like too much work... there's people out there who can look and actually see and listen and actually hear.
Ty for sharing with us... stay in the good flight.
You ARE seen and you ARE heard.
Much love,
🌹
xo
B
