The Actress

                                   
                              I have played many roles to appease people.
                             Who would not return the favor if they could?
              I have become Chamaeleon to adapt in every place I went.
                    Allowed people to see my emotions as a weakness.
                Fearing my vulnerability, afraid of how it could be used.
I covered up every ounce of pain with a smile to make everyone comfy.
While I slowly suffered in silence due to the fact that I felt no one cared to hear.
Finding myself consumed with feelings I no longer understood.
By holding them all in so long I became combustible.
Avoiding anyone who felt as they were like an open flame.
Taking me in circles trying to overcome what I could not understand.
Closed off to people like a room sealed shut.
Finding lies to be like daggers pushed into back.
Walking through a maze in order to come to terms with letting go.
Lost in a sea of my own emotions.
Looking around like which way was I supposed to go.
Miles away from every problem I have ever faced.
Swallowed in my problems as I try to move differently.
Taking me to a place where I have never been.
Swallowing my pain until it hit me like a heart attack.
Remaining quiet did not help in fact it hindered me.
Until the point where I found myself lost.
Who I am and why have not opened my mouth to speak?
Where have I been for so long?
I have been covered like a diamond in a rough.
Finally, being discovered for years hidden.
Seeing me out and about is like a rare commodity like finding a black diamond.
I have been awakened after years with my eyes covered.