Deep Roller

For years... my history lay dormant inside of me...small seed growing silently until my curiousity bloomed like a full grown tree.
I finally wanted to know...How far down the rabbit hole I could go.

My Father was a crack-addict and alchoholic,and my Mother was an Alchoholic and a Schizophrenic trippin on those phycotropic drugs.. along with heroine.....
In the end My Mother couldnt save me .... not knowing the pain she gave me when she killed herself.

Now my Father was never around and the Doctors say thats why I was feeling down.... The Doctors said I was  a Deep Roller...
Definition:A person who has deep destructive tendencies for drug/or alcohol abuse due  to Both parents being addicted.

Now....aint that some shit! considering the fact that I never THOUGHT about a drug until I turned 26 years old .....and then like the introduction to a long awaited movie..... I jumped head first into the Candy store....of Acid, Weed, and magic mushrooms galore!

Lord please watch over me as I smoke this weed,
Lord please watch over me as I do this acid,
Lord please watch over me as I eat these shrooms,
Lord please watch over me as I snort this coke,
Lord please watch over me as I drink these drinks.

I travelled so deep into my rabbit hole that I saw alternate rainbow realities floatin on streams of sunshine ....
then I communicated with moonbeams,and made peace with the face on the other side of my mirror....for 3 hours at least.....

Lord protect my mind....as I take these trips.... and please dont let my mind get ripped in half.

Now I can look back on those drug filled days and laugh.... and not at the fact that I did the drugs... but at the fact that I survived them....
Because I am a
Deep Roller.