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The Truce

Before I gave up,  
I did try, I endured it all...  
Year after year,  
It all just became normal.  
The angry fits of rage,  
The childish manipulations,  
We all just take it,  
So it’s passed down: generation to generation.
Before I gave up,  
I watched you punish us  
And yourself...  
Cried and prayed,  
Watching your deteriorating mental & physical health.  
I was an ear to listen,  
And I use to fuel the fire before I was able to see...  
Before I made the choice that the nonsense stops with me,  
Blessed and cursed that I didn’t have children; I fear I’d ruin them with a repeat.  
Before I gave up on you,  
I tried to get you to see...  
Tried to get you to direct the rage elsewhere,  
Handle it healthily...  
Instead you choose to aim & fire at your family.  
The family whom one by one you’ve managed to push away,  
The family who “just doesn’t love you enough”  
...so you say.  
Even though you pick us apart,  
And you are a gossip and are hateful,  
And it’s always only about you,  
And you can’t fathom that others might      have their plates full.  
I always jumped when you said so,  
And I didn’t really fight back,  
And those were the last times you and I were really on track.  
When YOU pull the reins  
When YOU dish out the pain...  
The pain that’s yours, but you’ve been running from for so long that you can’t even see... YOU are to blame,  
And that it’s manifested in all your toxic ways.  
Before I gave up on you;  
I was finally able to see...  
You just might be beyond repair  
And that really just saddens me.  
However, it’s become increasingly clear, there’s a choice to be made: you or me.  
So before I gave up on you,  
I’d gotten down to my last string...  
Been beaten black and blue,  
So I withdraw & leave the ring.
Written by Oslynray (Rosalyn)
Published
Author's Note
.... ever have a toxic family member? You should enjoy this then.
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