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old comforts
The cards feel familiar in my hands
though it's been years since I've done this
my belief in magic traded for cynicism
and spiritual fractures
I thought I saw them for what they were
pretty pictures painted on cards
telling me things I wanted to hear
...
I wanted to believe in soul mates
an all conquering connection
that could survive the sharp edges
of this world
But life is not a story plucked
from the romantic pages of a book
with happy endings or resolutions
our hearts can make sense of
...
I dreamed of you so much
I thought I would go mad with it
good dreams, bad dreams
dreams of love, dreams of death
dreams of things that couldn't come true
For a long time I longed for
and feared sleep
After the dreams where gone
I missed their absence
Your face in my subconscious
still makes my heart ache
...
I shuffle the deck and suspend
all disbelief that this isn't real
I choose the cards and lay them down
they don't tell me anything
I don't already know
but there's a comfort in ritual
and the confirmation
...
For all that's been lost
I still want to believe in you
(C) Indie Adams 2021
though it's been years since I've done this
my belief in magic traded for cynicism
and spiritual fractures
I thought I saw them for what they were
pretty pictures painted on cards
telling me things I wanted to hear
...
I wanted to believe in soul mates
an all conquering connection
that could survive the sharp edges
of this world
But life is not a story plucked
from the romantic pages of a book
with happy endings or resolutions
our hearts can make sense of
...
I dreamed of you so much
I thought I would go mad with it
good dreams, bad dreams
dreams of love, dreams of death
dreams of things that couldn't come true
For a long time I longed for
and feared sleep
After the dreams where gone
I missed their absence
Your face in my subconscious
still makes my heart ache
...
I shuffle the deck and suspend
all disbelief that this isn't real
I choose the cards and lay them down
they don't tell me anything
I don't already know
but there's a comfort in ritual
and the confirmation
...
For all that's been lost
I still want to believe in you
(C) Indie Adams 2021
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