realm reaching

   
     
     
     
     a longing; a longing this realm can't satisfy; that is why "recreational drugs" exists;    
     
     
    curious since I've heard of it; how I'm overdue for a "trip";    
a trip to "feel" "alive" for the first time;    
     
     
   want to activate one's emotional volume to intense; want to shed tears of pure bliss;    
     
     
  want to hit the happyland switch; perhaps a shared moment with a nonjudgmental ms.; spinning colors, and soothing music....    
     
     
 uncontrollable laughter, holds, dance, hugs, kisses..how is that not "living" ; all else is meaningless....    
   
   
  realm reaching....