You have been gone exactly thirty six days, and it is as if a part of me has died.
Like the world has suddenly stopped turning, as if the whole earth has gone quiet.
It feels like an eternity to me, how I will never see you smile again, or hear your voice.
I am surrounded inside of an ocean that is filled with the stench of death, And I am drowning in it.
I feel as if I have died a thousand deaths since the night you left this world,
Like the air that I am forcing myself to breathe is ridden with nothing but bile and misery.
I am searching for you through the fragments of my mind,
Willing myself to keep you alive, Even if it is only in the deepest depths of my mind.
You have been gone for a month and six days, and yet it feels like an entire lifetime.
I do not know how to keep going on from here, knowing that the ones i love will die.
I cannot fathom how I will get out of bed everyday and live, knowing they will die.
Death is a heartless bitch, and I wouldn't wish this on anyone;
This feeling of Impending doom.