feel

 
my emptiness speaks from deep inside me
I deny the truth because it hurts too much
I run from my feelings taking refuge inside the numbness
comfort found in the arms of substances

I can't seem to cope without my dope
truth be told I never have
damn it I feel too much
pacing the perimeter of my life
wanting to escape if just for a moment

fake it till you make it class what bullshit
I'm happy for those of you it works for
reliving my past just makes me want to get high
in anguish, I pasted a smile to my face
in agony, I simply existed

there is a missing quotient in me
the math is off
things don't add up

don't try to sell me on things that don't exist
nirvana what a load of crap
I find peace in the ether
an immortal portal where I can escape

the turmoil inside me too great
I'm an artist
expression helps, drugs are key
to my release