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I just don’t know...
Is it smart to stay?
After all the constant rain?
Or should I just go?
One thing I do know?
I’m tired of feeling out of control...
Tired of the push and pull,
Mind vs heart,
I want to move forward...
I really wanna let it all go...

But you act like part of you is stuck,
Like part of you loves him too much,
So you’re wasting all of Our time here
Knowing there’s no trust,
Just LISTEN!
Spirit knows when somethings up.
And you’ve ignored my nudges one too many times already,
And you’ve played with fire,
Tried my patience and your luck...

But I’m so conflicted,
One day I hate him,
The next day,
“maybe it’s not so bad...”
But then we communicate and I remember...
Our every interactions leaves me so drained...resentful....
Insecure and sad.
And my chest hurts when I think about it,
And my palms start to sweat,
And I can’t stop the ruminating...
And I can’t just forget...
Can’t stop the feeling in my chest,
Can’t block the feeling in my gut...

...that’s because I told you!
Spirit knows when somethings up!
The feelings you feel,
It’s ME,
still here to warn you silly girl,
You need to listen up.
Unless you like Us with gray hairs,
And new wrinkles and aches popping up...
It’s time to do what’s best,
It’s time to wake up,
Spirit knows what’s best...
I know when somethings up.