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an almost admitted selfishness.

   
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there I am † † † †
myself imagined; † † †  
some see this, as minutiae † † †  
it's all and wholly, † † †  
my reality † † † †
those twisted perceptions, † † † †
hang that albatross itself † † †  
I'm so wicked tired †† †
of my time wasted on my own pettiness † † †  
and kernels grasped for. † † † †
I was once told never to be anyone's "Plan B" † † †  
forgetting that "Anyone" also means me † † †  
I think. † † † †
I am that unimportant.... † † † †
that I am not even my own backup plan. † † † †
I'm lost within a dare, † † † †
†being called fat by beautiful skinny † † † †
or the lone one to see the sky go blinded brilliant
First, actually. ..I was FIRST! † † †  
is what I want to scream at they top of my lungs...
Before anyone else, even understood to look up
My entitlement is a true storied ailment. † † † †
stars, oceans, beatniks, sex, flowers~ † † †  
Flowers of MY choosing. † † †  
Roses are the be all, end all - of course † † † †
no, not a clichť  
Roses are THE only flower  
with sense enough to self protect  
and have others earn their beauty's full display †
They need that brilliant'd sky to shine down  
and cultivate growth to exquisite bloom  
indiscriminate and with masses unknown...  
Until it wasn't.  
I felt special  
Until I didn't.  
I was once beautiful and rose-like  

I never was. † † †  
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roses † † †  
don't † † † †
grow † † † †
in † † † †
a † †
soil † † †
of † † † †
sand † † †
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Bluevelvete
Written by Bluevelvete
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