BEING A MOTHER AIN'T EASY

As a woman and mother sometimes I don't even know how I do it day in and day out, trying to make 50 cents out to be a dollar but yet by the power of the most highest spiritual soul, I manage to put food on the table and keep the lights on and pay the bills. As a woman who has seen good times and bad times I don't know, how I found the strength and courage to still hold my head up high, through the highs and lows of everyday life. But yet I know the feeling all to well as a mother and woman when you gotta do it all by yourself, for the sake of a man who claims to love you but yet he isn't there as you continue to it for your children's, who didn't ask to be born into this hard cold world but they are here as a beautiful blessing. For I don't fault there father the man that said that he loved me, for I knew better to protect myself but I thought it would be us against the world. Yet he was the same man who wanted a family, yet who wasn't man enough to stick around and watch our childrens, grow up to be all that they can be. But yet it is those struggles that will be my greatest test of my life and heart and soul, for I sometimes I wonder if I truly loved myself enough, to make it through the storms. But it is necessary to continue to stand and walk and fight for my children's lives, for as a woman we owe it to ourselves and them for life was never meant to be an easy journey and travel and walk. Yet it's sad that we sometimes have to learn something new everyday about love, whether we want to see and believe it or not as something's aren't meant to be apart of your life and world and dreams.