A WOMAN’S PLEA
I had to write this a real long letter to you
Pleading for us to stay as we were,
For my heart still desire what we had,
But my spirit is saying “leave it alone,
For he doesn't feel the same”.
GOD never said that we will not have troubles in our life journey,
As a matter of fact,
HE promises us a life full of woe,
But if we are in HIM
It will not take our joy of each other away from us
And cause us not to have a life of chaos.
I understand that things got crazy,
But for the most part
We were at peace with each other,
Or so I thought.
Which brings me to the other pain
that I am feeling about you.
It hurt when you said
That I should get myself together,
I just needed a shoulder to cry on
Or just some encouragement.
And not an answer to my plight,
You promised me that
It was GOD, you, & me against the world.
What made that change?
I was always trying to do it on my own
I am not GOD so I don't “lean to my own understanding”
Sure, I'm not understanding why these doors are closing for me,
But was it not you who say to step out on faith?
I did step out on faith
Letting my guards down around my heart,
Now I feels like I was a fool all over again.
You promised that you would not be like the others.
Trust me, I am not the women of your past.
I always tell a man to read this passage in The Bible
That describes who I am striving to be,
“A Proverbs 31:10-31 type woman”.
I do love you and wish that the feeling is mutual
But I can't tell you what to feel for me.
I don't believe that it was just by chance we met.
If I have cause you any pain,
Please forgive me
Because that was not my intentions.
All I wanted was to give you all my love with all my heart.
I do know that I cannot make you feel the same for me
I will just leave it at that
And pray that one day GOD will bring you back.
Always remember that I will always carry you in my heart,
For I will always carry the moments we shared
For so many days & nights.
It’s hard to think that you would leave me
Standing alone, forever & again
You see in all relationship there is times when you won’t agree
I thought we had a better understanding
Then what your actions are showing me
Once again & again.
One thing that I have learned in life,
Is not to close doors on people,
Although they may hurt you at times,
It might come a time that you may need them
Before life’s end.
I think I have shared enough with you,
But I do have one more thing that I want to mention
The fact that I know that you have been through
A lot of hurt & pain,
From many other women.
I'm different & you have to let the past go.
It has made you very bitter & distrust women.
I do understand how this could happen,
But GOD wants to heal those pains.
You must first fully forgive those women
And yourself before you can go on.
You see that they have still living their life the way they choose
Leaving you were stuck with all that pain.
Although my grow up years had its pains,
I have not let that baggage keep me from being truly happy
And having loving relationships in this journey called life.
I know that as long as you don't forgive them & move past it,
You will always feel that pain Forever & a day.
In closing, I wish you all the love, joy,
And happiness that GOD has for you.
I don't pretend to know what
GOD’s plans for each me,
I do know that HE did promised
To give me what I prayed for,
Before I make another mistake in life,
Is a man that I love with all my heart,
And he loves me the same
Forever & a Day
I do want us to have drinks
One day as old friends,1 last time,
Then go on with each other’s life separately
Knowing that we completed
This part of our life’s journey.