Was it me or them

I fear i am broken
My heart was left open
You left me gripping a piece of my heart in the dark
When i lost you i lost a piece of myself
They said you were gone
Our wedding vows played in my head
Its funny the things you remember
When your world stops your
Husband is dead
I didnt anticipate this much pain
I didnt think of regret
Looking back there are things i wish i said that seemed so pointless at the time
I go back in my head
Maybe if I didnt make you choose you would still be here today
Ultimately is your death on them or is it on me.