a "ghost"

   
     
     
   (figuratively speaking) standing on the side of the road; sitting on top of a building; leaning against a rail; sitting on the steps    
     
     
  sitting in the restaurant, sitting in a bar; sitting on a park bench; waiting in the subway; sitting in the train;    
     
     
 laying, sitting, walking, watching.... going through the motions.... nothing "feels" real....    
senses "feel" dimmed....    
     
     
  you don't "know" anyone; and no one "knows" you.... a ghost; "it's better this way" is the belief....    
   
 
people are "traditional"; you aren't....
 
 
   
life is strange af.... whether or not there's "rules" etc.... life is strange af.... and cold....  
     
     
but things could be worst, right?(humor)