When I Say Entre Nous

 
When I say entre nous what I really mean
is, don’t share it with anyone else, I know
it wasn’t the most intimate conversation,
but you and I have been long time friends
 
but when I heard those same words being fed
back to me from someone else, some two-
hundred miles away, I knew it went through
you, into the ears of person I disliked most
 
I felt betrayed, how could you break my trust?
Was the gossip too juicy to hold back or too
much for you not to keep on your own, I felt
the weight of my heart ache, but I left it alone
 
I know I didn’t confront you, thirty some years
is too long of time to throw a friendship
away, instead I distanced myself from you,
I dissociated from the entire circle of friends
 
now I just click like or place a smiley face without
a comment, but I’m glad you found someone
and that your family has grown, that little mishap
is just something that I dealt with on my own
 
perhaps sometime in the future, when we all
hang out like we used to in the old days, we’ll
still be friends, even though I kept the hurt
to myself, I’ve healed and learned to forgive
 
and hopefully once these tough times are
over, we’ll have conversations like we did when
we were teens, I’ll mention it then because
after all this time, it’s water under the bridge