Grand'Daughter (Maya Zoe)
Almost six years old.
I'm broken'up broken'down
seeing her on the face'time screen,
knowing full'well that the
likelihood of my living long enough
to ever be with her again
grows slimmer every day.
A failing, broken heart(ed) ol'bastard
wimpering, most pathetic, house'bound
So full of innocent life & pleasures.
Drawing, reading, watching movies, trampolining, eating pizza,
Oblivious to the raging dis'ease and death enveloping the follied
country and sorry world in this insane 2020 year.
Looking so much like my deceased Leah Marie
at that age....oh, bloody unbearable.
One little girl swallowed by eternity.
Another in this world, yet so far beyond meaningful reach.
Feels as though i've missed my own life in
so many more ways than one.
This life, such profound grief and pain, punctuated by too few
~~ but who am I to judge? ~~