I Wish Mike Tyson Would Body Hook Me

Torn apart
Lacking heart

It eats away
I haven't been eating

It's consuming
I've been drinking

And missed the golden elixer
Destroyer/Fixer

Unaligned
Squabbled time

All alone
Silent groan

I've been trying so hard not to self deprecate
I've been struggling so hard to realize I'm great

Here's a boast
Better than most

Then i frown
Drown it down

I knuckle my ribs
Scratch the scab

It's not that bad
.... it's bad

Heavy mind
Too much time

In the day
Fade away

And I'm trying so hard to get over this feeling
But it's stuck
Too revealing

Piece of shit
Once again

I try to grow
Cold

Accept the fate
Too much to say

Silence
Internal violence

I want to fight
Just to get hit

Walking past strangers
He looks big

"Fuck you bitch"
He doesn't jump

And now i feel like an asshole
Enough's enough

I'm literally losing my mind
Trying to check in

But what then?

Just biding my time
Wrecked within

Remember when?

At it again
Fake the grin

All alone
No one knows

In the end
Not one friend

What is wrong?
Me

Reaching out
To find distance for the jab

And then my hook lands clean

Uppercutted
Gutted

And i don't know what to do

Bleeding through
Nothing to lose

And i haven't got a clue