RAINDROPS

 
My life is so pathetic from decisions I've regreted
I'm hardly ever sober cause the drugs help me forget it
I don't know which way I'm headed, complications of my past
My son is all I have and my health is fading fast
I can't stand to see him sad so mostly I've been hopeless
My doctor doesn't help me, all he does is up the dosage
From time to time I notice every second I lose focus
She swears to God she loved me but I never smelt the roses
Baby if it's over then it's over, let's end it
It's hard to be authentic when your heart's no longer in it
I know I'm so persistent and pushing you to your limit
Baby girl admit it, it's my fault you're acting timid
I guess I'm just a gimmick consumed by my condition
I should of put you first but instead it's my addiction
I'm forever unforgiven, hell I'm barely living
Forgive me for my sins in these sentences I'm sending
I'm starting to sense an ending so I gotta keep my guard up
Partially confused, I'm suffering from hard luck
I feel that if I loose I may never see the sun rise
I die everyday I don't get to see my son's eyes
It's crazy ain't it, how the clouds cleared and it's still raining here
I've gotta face my fears before I fuck around and fall
Different women that I've dated I'm missing them here lately
Reminiscing about that lady that kissed me and made me crazy
And I want her when I'm with you
When I'm with her I want you
What do I do?
To tell the truth I'm falling down, I don't want no one around me
Raindrops all around, in the alcohol I'm drowning
Days of depression full of rage and plenty stress
Since an adolescent I've been broken down and helpless
Often I've been selfish putting the drugs first
I still cry late at night when I'm all alone
You can see the light shining but nobody's home
Where in the world did I go wrong?
I won't ever know, so I'm riding by myself screaming let me go
If I'd of stayed by her side maybe things would change
Every night she'd see the tail lights in the window pane
I'm always on the go, I get you high and keep you low
We gave up on love and murdered all the romance
I should of lit the candle, should of held your hand