Ghost

How can i blanket this statement?
it's cold upon the pavement
before i'm dead
my gravestone, desecrated  
 
the sky is darkened grey
as the rain washes me away
but above the clouds the sun still shines
unseen to me
 
buried in my mind
worm gnawed over time
unbent but cracked of spine
i don't believe  
 
for here i am the ghost
desperate for transparency  
for here i am the ghost
once more again
 
alone once more and craving
to be treated like a human
alone once more am i
no one objects
 
crescent to pierce my throat
i think i'm finding courage
to rise in my bravery
and accept my worthless
 
haunted by the thoughts that were
fuck, how they've changed
it was divinity to hear my name
 
glowing haloed handcuffs
hold me to dismay
free to shackle self inside these chains
 
miles worth of cage
free to range but sitting put
how could i stand for such on phantom legs
 
feelings rush of humanity remembrance
until the empty fulfills my existence
i'm fighting at the fact i want to haunt you
 
the mirror of the moment
my battery feels dead
hinting at the blow, i finally lost you
 
absorbing the abuses
to come out proud and useless
and continue to rabble in my rubble
 
i wake with venom in my gut
seems i havent ingested enough
phantom legs that continue to stumble
 
i used to be humble
much more so than most
but this frame of time
i want what's mine
take what i find
shed my ghost
 
exoskeleton on the floor
my shell of a man
spilling my guts
god is me, i'll be damned
 
i'll stand noble and soft
strike the shepherd  
then with sheer determination
slaughter the lamb
 
i've never been this alone
sinister smile with growing horns
my nose involuntarily curls
 
yet im learning of a heaven
a heaven i have held
and im fighting the thoughts to kill
just to get there
 
i can destroy
claiming what i seek
conscience of my breath
im sure it reeks
 
havoc met with manic
i feel comfort in its embrace
and you have no clue how delicious she tastes
 
forked tongue to sing the truth
misery trapped in youth
frontier of my pursuit
 
and yet with this determination
to let nothing stand in my way
i can read my fate
 
i am just to be the ghost again