delusional world

 
little regrets in grey
colorless, voiceless they grow
restless inside

they stick to the shadows
insidious feelings of unrest
a graveyard of buried emotion

a tombstone reads
here lies love
she never stood a chance
self sabotage murdered her

the crows gather for the feast
more sad feelings coming soon...
.
within the hope
my sadness grows
it hurts to pick yourself up
and try again just to fail
but get up I must
a soldier on a mission
I must march

I peer through the haze of confusion
I get lost in the mist
something keeps me moving forward
I don't quite know what it is

my delusions howl
I do my best to recognize reality
but what is really real in this world?

separating fact from fiction
I understand pain flavors a soul beautifully
lady grace ever before me

I hope to be like this, someday