A letter to my ex

Don't spend time tearing me down, no it's  not worth it. When I already take into account I am not perfect.  I loved you truly and believe me I am worth it.  Wanted to grow with you, but you gave me no room to work with.   So you moved on because you were made to walk.  We only fought because you never had the mind to talk.    
 
You have your version of a man I pray you find him.  I am a man with self respect so I don't  mind him, don't tell him stories about me just to blind him.     Moving right along I know I am strong.  I don't  let my ego participate  I know my wrongs.    Like Pac said you and I both know what's going  on.  
  You're a great woman yet you got issues,  but I  loved you enough to work with you.   You know I may yell but I won't hit you.    
But what makes it worse, and makes me hurt, and not in one of your verse, you admit you hit me first, coming at me with knives trying to put me in a hearse. and if this is not true then the world is not cursed.
    So don't play as if you are a angel that same rope you trying to hang me with, it's  going  to hang you.  
And no man on this planet  is going to save you when you dangle.      And you know this is the truth I confess,  put me in front of that lie detector and I  will past that test.   Let's not fight no more lets put it to rest.  
Because out of all the men that loved you,I loved you the best. I wish this was a letter to my woman it's  a letter  to my ex.  All good things to show I loved you, you seem to forget.  I think about how you try to tear me down, and I  say to myself do you believe this shit.  But  nothing  is going  to hold me down.  
Or break my stride.  I won't hold on to you because I  got my pride.   Yet if this world was perfect I rather have you at my side.  
My heart remains warm beneath this ice. And I am going  to let you slide.  
I wrote only beautiful things about you. Not to reel you in,  only because  my words are true.   And I  waited for you and waited.
 But I  am moving on because I  am feeling  so unappreciated.  
I loved  you I told you my secrets. I told you everything.  Because I  loved you with all my heart, and was striving to change.
 But all you seem to want is the rainbows, with out the rain.  
There is no perfect relationship,  there is going to be some bad weather.  
To form that rainbow  the dark clouds and the rain must work together.   Lets make one thing clear.  I  promise you in your darkest times I  would appear. Just call my name and I,will be there.   Let it go I never meant to cause you any pain. But I  can't  hold on to the past I have moved on from the shame.  A letter to my ex I promise I will never rewrite this letter again.