On My Own

Uncontrollable emotions
Lack of support.
Always something negative to say.
People just don’t get it.
They see one side of me,
And when they get a glimpse of another
Suddenly they say I’m somebody else.
But it’s me!
Can’t you see you?
Can’t you hear ?
I️ haven’t changed.
You just don’t know me.
You’d do anything for me
But show up to a family session.
You’re right.
You’re not a parent.
You’re not my mom.
You’re just a person who can’t do me one thing.
You say I️ make up excuses.
But apparently you’re going through way too much for one session to talk about me.
Guess you bluffed.
I️ have no support,
But I should get use it
Cause no ones coming to save me.
Truth is,
I️ rather blow my brains out
Than sit here with all my thoughts.
And I️ know if I️ open up
They’ll be nobody but me.