Can It Ever Be 1969 Again?  aHA !

 
 
Here we go
where we're going we're already gone  
and went
spent
all the money that poverty would buy well
into me seventhDecade always on the retreat
missed so much NY/Bklyn/EasternLongIsland/upstateNY
trips had to offer by way of extended "experience"
in things I was too shy/timid to indulge aspiration(s)
of being a Cali Lit teacher at Berkley so soon became  
a joke settled down too early stayed settled down
for four decades of a joke in bland kanzass safety
(but , hell, i'd've missed creating beloved Eric (b.1979)
and equally beloved Leah Marie (1987-2018) (god, i miss her so...)
Now
so old heart dis'eased bereaved battered i'll never be to NYBklyn
OaklandCA,ever'again, never see beloved Eric and Maya again as they say  
after six months in hospital where i near died several times and provided
staff great amusement(s) i'd never've been out of fckn USofA had Eliz not taken
me to Nassau for few days No Europe No AnyWhere Else  Ever (Amen)  
O dear dear dear po' m'm'm'me.      What thfuck can you do when one doesn't do much of anything   ( ?)
to break the fear-bound bindings?  Ain't a winner but no way consider self a loser
but all them polarities of rational thinking won't mean for shit when that final
curtain come sliding down
 
 
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