"Meep"

You are like a drug in my mental system
Shocking each need and want going into the day
The first thought I wake up to in the morning
The last thing I think about before I sleep
Its hating this feeling more than even depression
Feeling lost without knowing if I am wanted equally
Do you want me the way that I want you?
That lady came back from vaca, maybe thats all you needed?
A reason to not feel so lonely...my fears? Facts?
I honestly don't even know since you made time for me
Now won't even spare me time to talk, lost again
Checking my phone 50 times a day for your text
I am fucking pathetic omg. This is insane.
I am so confused and I don't know why, broken
The same shit going in and out of my head daily
Am I broken? Why do I feel like this? Am I crazy?
I feel pathetic for feeling this desperate
Desperate? Maybe thats too strong of a word...
Its how I feel about gaining a moment of your time
You said you lacked initiative about your lovers
Well if thats what it is than you are truly right
I need clarity. I need action. I am losing it.
I just don't know what to do and its affecting all
Even my writing. Someone help me...