BITTERSWEET EMOTIONS

Why is it that the heart wants what it wants yet constantly Denie you the chance, to feel the love back in return from someone that you thought was yours to keep and behold. Yet that same love ends bittersweet even before it had the opportunity to grow, leaving you feeling abandon and alone with the confusion of doulting oneself. Why does it hurt so much within the depth of your heart and soul as you, find yourself dreaming of them knowing that they will never be yours forever, as it was only a prophetic vision once dreamed of in your magical place of subconsciousness. Why do we ignore the signs of subliminal messages, that tells us that which we seek is merely a reflection of the mirror image of our heart, as we see it happening to others and not us as though we aren't worthy of the same kind of love. Why is it so hard to find someone who understands, the true meaning of what it is meant to be apart of someone's life. Yet sometimes beneath layer upon layers that lay beneath the surface of our tears and fears, there are scars unseen and untold and unheard that has changed us in ways that only the heart knows and truly understand. What it feels like to experience the feeling of being rejected and  alone and afraid of expressing, your own innermost thoughts of what you want and need from love. Yet beneath the deepness hiding behind the mask as we sometimes wear two faces, are feelings and emotions of trust that has become an issue with the process of the hurt and pain. For there will be the feelings of betrayal and dishonesty, and disloyalty and shame along with the blame as they all will play, a big role in all our life's decisions of the heart and soul and subconsciousness of our mind.