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What else is there to say?

Since you won't talk to me about this in private, I suppose this is my only avenue.
  
Seeing as I presented you with a lingering question.
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Look, I always knew you had some sort of admiration or romantic interests in me throughout our time in High School. †
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Given our now ended plantonic relationship for over 12+ years. †
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I suppose you're wondering why I never brought up knowing about it. †
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Truth is, at one point in time. †
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I had the same interests in you as well. †
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Now, you must be really wondering why I never said anything knowing I was at one point receptive to the thought of pursuing that path with you. †
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The fact is that, I hated you more than those feelings that had existed at that time. †  
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Because you know as well as I that, I had witnessed you in romantic relationships with others. †
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I witnessed the overwhelming evidence of your unfaithfulness, obsession, overly sexualization of your partners, and violence towards them if they didn't put up with your unbecoming behavior. †
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I still see those traits in you, yet I'm the selfish one apparently. †
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Let's not forget that you would demean me based on my family's material status. †
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Remember "Shut up, you're poor!"
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Or the sexual harassment towards me when I would just wanted to be your friend. †
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The "I'll fuck you up against this wall." Does that ring a bell? †
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Let's not leave out the fact that you sexually assulted me in the High School main building office hallway. †  
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Or The "if you let me feel your bra, I'll let you leave the building." †

And you went underneath my bra and played with my nipples, proceeding to ask me if "does that do anything for you?" †  
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And I stood there in anger as I snapped at you to let me leave the building now. †  
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But lastly the fact that you thought because I was there in the night of your little orgy party. †  
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That I would suck your dick after all the bullshit you put me through. †
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And you wondered why I wanted to rip your guts out and display them. †
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I hate you, it was never them. †
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I secretly hated you for everything that you did to me. †  
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Any resemblance of potential affection I had for you died years ago. †
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Yet I still let you be a friend a to me. †
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I kept you around because I genuinely still cared about you, and for what? †
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For you to have the opportunity to try and destroy the marriage I have now? †
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Because I didn't notice your subtitle attempts to make me love you? †
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You think you're the one who's going to treat me right if my husband fucks up with me. †
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After how you've treated me over the years. †
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I can't help you realize what a fucked up delusional thought you had to believe that notion. †
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My greatest regret if letting you out of the choke hold I had you under that day. †
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Yet I gave you the chance to communicate that lingering question. †
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"Do you have feelings for me?"
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Like you always did with me in general during our friendship, you ignore me and that question. †
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Acted like it never happened. †
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You're silence spoke volumes to me. †
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Especially when I found out you indeed have explicited content of me using an anonymous name to access that kind of material. †
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Its obvious, it's written all over you my friend what your real intentions and feelings are. †
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All I was trying to do was give you the opportunity to move on, know for certainty what my thoughts were on the topic. †
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And gently, unfortunately as giving you that respect would be incredibly one sided. †
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Turn you down on the idea of becoming more than just friends, why? †
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After admitting I had some semblance of having those same interests as you in a potential romantic relationship. †
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Because with every friendship, I fear pursuing that option and having it end not on good terms to continue being in contact or even friends anymore after. †
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I didn't want to ruin a already good relationship, be it plantonic in nature and would remain so. †
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But it just went to show, our friendship still ended without having to seek that option. †
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You simply couldn't treat me like friend really should, or respect my boundaries at all. †
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I guess I was right not to trust you with my heart but most of all my kindness patience, and trust either. †
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I loved you in a time where you weren't my enemy, even if it was a small fraction of time. †
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But I hate you too much to let you ruin me more in a close intimate relationship. †
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And I can't let you ruin what I already have with my current partner. †  
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He's done more good to me than you ever did in our 12+ years of friendship. †
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So tell me Damian, what else is there to say? †

What I really wonder is how you'll react to this lengthy confession and the overall reason why I hate you so much. †  
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I bet at this point, reading and confirmation all this. †
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You probably wished you had stolen some possession of mine. †  
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Despite everything I own being very sentimental too me. †
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You could have kept it as a small token of my ever long lasting hatred of you. †
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My dearest Damian. †
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Eat shit and live.
TheMonsterfromHe11
Written by TheMonsterfromHe11 (Daddy Tempest)
Published | Edited 29th Sep 2020
Author's Note
A confession and admission of distain
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