devil

someone can paint you a picture we were definitely the wrong mixture nothing is as what it seems not even in my dreams

someone can make you feel something they cannot sweet then you start blushing
one guy can ruin your whole life
it was wrong I'm still a wife

I hit a low point
when I reach this checkpoint
something internally in me was wrong
I didn't feel like I belong

things in my relationship were not great maybe what would happen was fate
at this point, no one could save me
I just wanted to flea

it was like a high
I didn't even say bye
more like looking for love in the wrong places seeing different faces

I was drowning
while he was just clowning
we both struggle with mental health
he had no wealth

he was crazy at times
I couldn't sleep in the night times
I accepted the demons the voices
also his choices

he would say he wanted all of me
but that couldn't be
my heart would always belong to another I had loved and left
I wish it was him so I had laid on his chest

one day I awoke
something in me broke
I went on an impulse
and I Repulse

I'm still avoiding you
I wish you can get a clue we weren't ever supposed to be
you're not a friend to me